Now and Then

In the past,

I knew it would never last.

I'd say that I was okay, but now I know,

That was all just a show.

I'd smile and agree,

How could he not ever see?

That I was lying,

To keep us from Always fighting.

Finally, I had to pull the plug,

Crush that depression like a bug.

I was always down,

Never making a sound.

I was always afraid,

That his good mood would fade.

I couldn't stay in that cage,

Always scared he'd use me to take out his rage.

It's over, it's done,

I won.

Now I dance when I run,

I spread my arms and twirl in the sun.

I sing as I walk,

I'm Never afraid to talk.

I Never have to go through that again,

Amen ;)

Now, I smile!

I can run a mile,

And not feel tired.

When I'm with you, I'm always inspired.

Having you, I'm so blessed.

Back then I'd never have guessed,

That I'd be where I am now.

Wow.

I find myself smiling as I'm walking down the street,

Imagining if, on this sidewalk, we'll meet.

You're amazing,

I never know what each day will bring.

You're a constant pleasant surprise,

You're better than all the other guys.

You're you.

You have no attitude.

You're mature.

My cure.

But you're still exciting,

unpredictable and enticing.

I know I sometimes do something wrong,

I start to feel like I don't belong,

Like I don't deserve this

Or any kind of bliss.

I love that, when I do, you know

You can feel when something's off

And you don't scoff.

No one else will see,

But, you'll say Stacy Marie..

Then you get in my face

And all the bad stuff, you chase,

Away.

And you keep the demons at bay.

Before you, no one had ever seen me,

Not at this degree.

We fit so perfectly,

It's just you and me.

Heavenly.

You

It's like a dream,

Supreme.

From anything I've ever felt,

So different than any other hand I'd dealt.

Melt.

Your eyes,

When they locked on mine,

Shine. 

It was a sign,

From above.

Love.

I never knew it before,

It was lore.

Fake,

Exasperate.

I love to stand with you,

It's nothing like I was used to.

Your warmth, your strength, your care,

It's rare.

Walking, our hands intertwine,

As if by design.

I hope you know,

I don't know if I can ever show,

The amount of what I feel,

It's real.

Consuming.

Empowering.

I've found you at last,

Heart's beating fast.

All these emotions arise,

Tears in my eyes.

Tears of joy,

Cuz you're my boy.

The words, I can't even think of

Love.

Everything we've already been through,

What we will go through,

Perfection because of You.