Me

Standing alone, staring at my reflection,

Vulnerable, stripped of all protection.

I recall your voice, brutal and biting,

My flaws you were almost always reciting.

The mirror is the one place I cannot hide,

The truth is vicious, nasty and snide.

I’ll always be reminded of the things you said,

The heartbreak and tears I have shed.

For every step towards recovery I made,

I expected the pain to begin to fade.

But everywhere I look, I’m reminded of you,

And I begin to doubt myself, thinking what you said was true.

Will I never be free of this pain?

Will all my attempts at love end in vain?

What we had together I will never forget,

It was almost perfect, until you quit.

To fix it, I thought all I had to do was hold on,

But it didn’t work since you were already gone.

It’s time to move on, but I can’t get rid of the pain,

My heart has been thoroughly slain.

Standing alone, staring at my reflection,

Vulnerable, stripped of all protection.

I tell myself that everything will be alright,

That I cannot give up the fight.

It’s hard to stand on my two feet,

When it seems that life has me beat.

I have issues weighing on my back,

Loss, depression and hate, they have begun to stack.

Some days I can’t believe how much I have cried,

In bed, safe in my room, I can hide.

His arms used to wrap around me, so secure,

My safety, he would always assure.

My future with you had once been crystal clear,

Now, with everything open, I have much to fear.

Your insults are forever engraved in my mind,

My flaws are not too hard to find.

I fell into love, like an animal into a trap,

When you blew me off, it felt like a slap.

I feel so much shame.

Was this only a game?

Standing alone, staring at my reflection,

Vulnerable, stripped of all protection.

I can’t shake the humiliation you made me feel,

I can’t distinguish the lies from what is real.

You’ve made me question everything I know,

To the point where I don’t know if my confidence will ever again grow.

I lost myself during the course of our relationship,

My personality went on a long trip.

Now I’m searching, wondering if I can make it through this,

Can I ever find bliss?

Now, staring into the eyes of my reflection,

I’ll look until I find a bit of perfection.

In the mirror, I see me.

Hopefully one day I will be free.